Amazed...

As I lay on the loveseat with my extremely swollen feet elevated and under an ice pack I am revelling in the amazement of our Heavenly Father.

On the weekend I attended a Simulcast at our church that had Beth Moore speaking on "The Heart of our Desires." One of the things that kept coming to me over and over on Friday evening as I listened to Beth's statements about Psalm 37 Verse4 "Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart"
was that this baby girl that I am carrying has been a desire of my heart probably since Aidan was born...that is a good 10 years girlfriends! Beth talks about a legitimate heart desire has a wait involved...it has to be tested by time and a sustained longing that is unaffected by mood or surroundings. The desire has to be cultivated in us. Well I had a whole garden of little girl ideas going on in my head...any little girl I could get my hands on I would paint their nails, do their hair, even shop for little girl clothes for everyone elses little girls.

With each pregnancy I longed for a little girl of my own...and when we were pregnant with our third baby and found out he was a boy through the ultrasound, I faced a good couple of weeks of having to deal with the fact that I might only be the mother to boys. It was almost like grieving for something I thought I might have the chance of getting but then didn't get. Not that I was not thankful for our dearest little Asher, but I had to deal with the fact that a deep desire was, once again, turned down by God. But now I see that God rewards preservance of faith and I can't stop smiling about all He has given me in this little girl and more...

Today this baby girl of ours is 33 weeks gestation. This is the longest, ever that I have been pregnant with any of our babies. Aidan was born at 27 weeks, Addison was born at 30 weeks and Asher was born at 31 weeks. Amazing isn't it?? Amazing that He would bless us with such a desire of my heart AND keep her in utero the longest of them all. He is using this baby as a total testimony to His glory my friends...and that I can't begin to even explain to you how this delights my heart. It brings me to happy tears every single day that she stays where she is supposed to be growing...inside me rather then inside an incubator at the hospital. Remember that situations can be used for God's glory and this is by far our clearest example yet....