For Today

For Today (June 22, 2009)

Outside my window...the wind is howling, trees are moving making it a yucky day to play outside for the kiddies.

I am thinking...about Wes who took the little kiddies to McDonalds Play Place so I could rest easy, and about the Asian chicken salad he is going to bring me home for lunch...yummy!

I am thankful for...the past weekend, time together with family, laughing children, being able to take some photos, cuddles from Aidan once he got home yesterday, that Wes loved his Fathers Day gift, my mom for 2 delicious meals this weekend, and yet another day that Baby A is staying in to grow.

From the kitchen...can't see anything getting cooked for supper tonight, so will be a good pizza night.

I am wearing...my pj's STILL (and it is 12:30pm)..not feeling very motivated to get showered and dressed today...seems like too much energy.

I am creating...nothing...but love looking at all the websites of other amazing ladies that are in the process of "creating"...been really missing scrapbooking this past week.

I am going...to have to go to Thyme Maternity this week sometime to buy some maternity shorts as I don't have any that fit me and wearing pants in hot weather just isn't "cool."

I am reading...my bible at least one time a day, emails and love to reads friends blogs.

I am hoping...that Baby A is born full-term and healthy.

I am hearing...commercials on TV in the background as I type.

Around the house...I am trying to get a few loads of laundry done today...will probably be all I do that is "productive".

One of my favorite things....downloading and looking at photos on the computer after a fun weekend with family.

A few plans for the rest of the week...quite day of rest tomorrow as Wes is going out to the Gas Plant for training and the little guys will be with my mom, a doctors appointment, visits with friends.

A photo for today...

Thank You Lord

I lay on the couch awaiting my husbands arrival home from a run...he now runs 8km every second evening. His goal is to do a half-marathon sometime in the near future. As I think about having 124 days left in this pregnancy, I can't even imagine running around the block :) As this baby and my belly grow I am so thankful for every single day that she is staying inside. She is at 22 weeks gestation today. How exciting!

So, our household has had a very blessed week. We made the decision last week that we are going to try to have Wes stay home from work at the gas plant to care for his family during this time of "baby-growing." Our Addison has gone from being a little monster (spitting at my mom during tantrums) to a little boy who listens and thanked me today for inviting his friend Corbin over to play (without any prompting). We have seen such a change in his behavior as he is adapting to this new family arrangement of having daddy and mommy at home and getting to sleep in his own bed every night. So, Wes has applied for a Leave Of Absence from work at the gas plant and will do real-estate to fill in the missing pay cheques. (It is so much easier finding a sitter for a couple hours here and there if Wes has to go out and work a deal for real-estate then find someone to watch them for 13 hours in one day.) We are totally trusting in our Lord and feel such a peace that this is the right thing to do for our family at this time in our lives. Wes has amazed me with his patience and positive attitude this past week in having to look after all of us. He is such an amazing guy. One sale and two listings for real-estate have also come his way this week, which too has been such a blessing. We have had people come over and hang out and encourage us, and we have been thankful. So thankful for all that we have and all that is to come...Thank you Lord!!

Relationships

I sat here staring at the screen for a few minutes before coming to a conclusion about what to write about today. One thing that has stood out for me this past week is the value of relationships. The first and foremost important relationship is that between Jesus and I. I have seeked Him more this past week then ever before and I can't explain to you the comfort I feel as I know He is with us and overseeing this whole situation. Anyone that knows me real well may know that my husband is the "people person" and I am a little bit more to myself. As I grow closer to God, I yearn for relationship with people. After a whole lot of resting last week I had way too much time to think and I felt lonely almost every day. The days I did not feel lonely were the days that someone was over at our house. So, when people have been asking what I need or what they can do for us I have told them...we need visitors or we need a visit. It has become one of the highlights of my day, whereas I didn't feel that way before. Don't get me wrong, it wasn't like I didn't like having people over...but it was usually my husband pushing me to call someone or go and do something with someone. Now, it is God telling me that I need relationship and I need people in my life to help us get through this bedrest situation. I am finally convinced that I cannot do this on my own. I am so confident in saying that I, and we as a family cannot grow this little baby girl without the Lord. And today, my husband finally feels a peace that God is with us in all of this which has been a major stressor between us. Wes wanted to do and fix everything hiimself...and now we are looking up, looking to our Heavenly Father to guide us to how to live these next 4 months. Tears come to my eyes as I feel so calm and at peace compared to the feelings of fear, worry, and being a burden to those around us. What a comfort when we are able to enlist God's power through prayer and trust in the knowledge that He is in control.

"Give your entire attention to what God is doing right now, and don't get worked up about what may or may not happen tomorrow. God will help you deal with whatever hard things come up when the time comes." Matthew 6:34 THE MESSAGE

So, thank you to every special person who has lifted us up in your prayers, for every special person who comes by for a visit, for every special person who calls to see how things are going, to every special person who has cared for our little guys when Wes has worked, to every special person who has brought a meal or dessert by, to every special person who even sends an email to let us know they are thinking of us. We couldn't do it without Jesus and you....

Time

See my new little ticker on the right? There is baby A :) 139 days to go...wow! Wow, wow, WOW! That is a whole lot of days. In the grand scheme of my life though...not so much. These are the little conversations that go on in my head over the last few days, since finding out that the only way I feel good is if I rest for most of the day. Rest laying down mainly so there is less pressure on my cervix. My antibiotics for the UTI are almost done and I thought I might feel better at this stage but I am not. Having 3 kiddies and being on a bed rest is something to adjust to that is for sure. Will it all be worth it in the end? Yes, that is for sure. I have to focus on the fact that we need to do this for this baby GIRL, so she can grow in this incompetent body of mine. Today has been easy to rest, as Wes went to work and the little guys are at Grandmas & Papa G's and Aidan is at school. So, I rest easy. It is once they are home that I want to hang out with them...watch them play, water my plants outside, take photos, even do dishes, make meals and do laundry! Wes' parents came over last night after the kiddies were in bed and that was so nice...we had some good conversation and a game of Scrabble. That is what we need...to still be in contact with people so that this whole "rest" thing doesn't seem like some sort of plague. So, ideas of things I can do while I am resting...well I know there are tonnes of things I want to do, like read all those books I buy and never make time to read and now I have the time to work with my Photoshop program that I used to complain that it all just takes so much "time" to figure out. I am going to be sad when the boys start doing summer activities, because of course they should still enjoy themselves even though I can't come. Why am I anticipating this already?? I should stop typing all my thoughts. So, that being said...I guess I ask that you if you think of me through your day, send a little prayer up for Jesus for my spirit...that I can remain positive in all of this...and that I can be an encourager and so supportive to my husband who, all of a sudden, is both Mom & Dad. Wes is such an amazing guy, just trying to do everything he can for us...and it tires him and I can understand that. He feels pressure to be at home, he feels pressure to be at work...HE is in demand my friends and I am so glad he is by my side...him and Jesus...wouldn't do life without them :)